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Thursday, April 21, 2016

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY FIRST LOVE

Dear Caroline,

Last night we lost part of our family. You aren't old enough to understand yet, but Chelsea isn't coming home again. She was in so much pain that we had to put her down. She is sleeping and pain free now.


Chelsea was Mama's first love. I found her at a shelter when she was just 10 weeks old. It was my final semester of college, and it was a few weeks before finals. Horrible timing to get a
puppy- but I am so very glad that I took the leap and did it. She became my best friend. I enrolled her in puppy classes, spent countless hours training her on a leash, and spent as much time with her as I could. She was everything to me and she took such great care of me.

Chelsea was in my life for almost 11 amazing years. A third of my life so far! She meant the world to me. It was her and I long before I found Daddy, before Moose joined us, and before you came along. I
never imagined she'd get to meet my first child! While you only got a year and a half with her, and you most likely won't remember her except from pictures and stories, I am so very thankful that she got to be a part of your life.

She taught you so much about love in the last year and a half. She taught you about friendship, loyalty, sharing and more! She showed you how to "come", cleaned up your messes, and let you snuggle on the dog bed with her. I am forever grateful that you had this time with her.

Chelsea loved laying in the sun, and loved chasing squirrels and rabbits. In her younger days she climbed trees, and scaled fences as if
she was super dog! She would run in circles, do figure 8's, and lean as far in as she could on the corners. When we were in Austin, she loved sitting on the top stair of the pool at Nana Bella and Grandpa's. She was afraid of other dogs, but loved people. She took awhile to warm up to Moose, but once she did she was the best big sister he could have ever asked for. She'd pin him down and clean his ears and mouth. She was so loving and almost motherly to him. She took on the same roll when you arrived. She'd hear you cry and immediately get up as if to let me know. She'd check on you and keep an eye on things.

The day you learned to crawl, you decided to crawl right towards Chelsea. She was cornered and it scared her so much! She was not expecting you to be on the move! She growled and snipped. I got scared and told her never to do that again. You had no idea what had just happened. I walked around the house for the next few months asking the dogs "Where's Caroline?", so they'd keep an eye on you and not be startled. I look back on that day and laugh. Poor Chelsea had no clue what you were doing. Little did she know, you'd soon be walking, and running! She figured it out and went with the flow. She was patient with you as you learned to be "gentle". She loved you so much.

Every morning she'd come in while I was giving you your milk. She'd jump up with her two feet on the chair just to give us both kisses. You'd lean in and say "ahhh" with an open mouth. She'd give kisses galore! You'd even try and share your milk with her.

We have such an amazing family, and Chelsea was a big part of it. She will be missed so much. She was always so patient and understanding. So loving and so thoughtful. It is amazing how hard it is to lose her. She will always have a piece of my heart. I will tell you stories about her so you never forget her, either. I feel so honored to have had such a beautiful dog be a part of my life for so long. We had such a great relationship and she was with me through it all- from my single days to being a mama. I love her so much. You love her so much already. I hope this is relatively easy on you once you figure out she's not coming back. We'll all be strong together.

I love you so much.

Mama



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2 comments:

  1. Omg I am so so sorry! You are an amazing writer. What a wonderful life you all had with her.
    Patti

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss! The tears are rolling down my face. I so understand this difficult process. I have done it three times now and it is the hardest part of loving a pet! You have captured so beautifully all she was to you in life and will continue to be on the other side of that Rainbow Bridge! I have to believe that all our beloved pets are waiting for us there when the time comes! Sendings cyber hugs your way!🐾

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